Humbling Ourselves Yet Standing Firm in our Witness for Jesus Christ

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Coming in the cloudsAs a Christian, I concur that some people reading my blog posts might perceive that I am JUDGING them as to whether they be a Christian or otherwise. But this is truly not so. My only intent is to fervently ask people to examine themselves as we all are called to do in Holy Scripture to see if we remain in the faith. 2 Corinthians 13:5

Please know there is quite a difference between God ordained “righteous judging” and the judging we are NOT to do on a whole (See Revelation 2:2-3, John 7: 24, Romans 16:17-18, 1 John 4:1, Psalm 37:30 ) Understandably as such, I cannot see inside a person’s heart 100% to know if they are a genuine blood bought Christian, anymore than they can see into mine to determine the same. I can certainly form an opinion if perhaps one is a true follower of Christ based on their admission of such, fruits, and theological beliefs, but only our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ knows the inter-dwelling convictions of one’s heart. However I am not here to determine someone’s final destination and resting place or condemn them to hell, one way or the other, based on my opinions. It’s not even my place.

I would have to be God to do so and I am NOT god, much less ANY god for that matter. I am a sinner saved through God’s grace period, just as you. So don’t ever consider me your #1 source for the Truth, as Jesus Christ is still a work in me…shaping me in His knowledge to receive His Word and instruction on a daily basis. I only wish to be seen as humble servant before the eyes of God, boasting in my weakness 2 Corinthians 11:30-31, 1 Corinthians 1:31
not boasting in of myself. I was born into sin just like everyone else as the offspring of Adam.

While God has certainly laid upon my heart a burden for those who are trapped or being led astray by false religions, false teachers and prophets, I continually thank Him for giving me the spiritual gift of discernment in recognizing Truth from error by using His Word as the ONLY compass for that truth, regarding the strong delusion surrounding those who are indeed lost in deceit. Matthew 7:15-16, Acts 20:29-30, Matthew 15:8-9, Galatians 1:6, Matthew 24:24,
2 Corinthians 11:13-15 Why God gave me this particular burden on my heart, I cannot question.

Truth be told, I never really had much discernment growing up as a Catholic because we were taught to just trust in the laws, man-made traditions and doctrines of the RCC as a “work in progress” to save us…. over being justified and saved alone through Christ’s grace in His one-time perfect sacrifice never to be offered again. Hebrews 10:12 However God in His infinite love, mercy and perfect timing finally led me out of this confusion.

Jesus Christ asks that each and every one of us to do His will, even if it means the loss of friends, relatives and loved ones. Matthew 10:37-38, Matthew 19:29, Matthew 16:24-26 and our possessions – wealth Matthew 19:21. So regardless of the risk, I will continue to warn people of the growing apostasy that has entered into His church because I love them. Not because I somehow feel I am better or smarter than them for receiving this knowledge, because the acceptance of the TRUTH comes alone from God in opening the hearts, mind and eyes of those who readily have ears to hear it! Matthew 11:15-22

All I know is the burden I have is constant but yet it gives Him glory and that is enough for me. I wake up every day feeling this burden. I go to bed feeling this burden. People sometimes avoid me because I have this burden. They don’t want to know about or be convicted of any possible error in their life with the Word of God as our measure for Truth. It would COST most people in their eyes too much to turn from that which God hates. But that is to be expected. After all, much of the world is IN the world and not living for Christ. Surely He could have chosen someone else, more equipped to bear this burden, to warn people of the growing apostasy that is taking place. We ask ourselves, “Why us Lord? Who are we?” Yet we are asked to continue to fight the good fight for His glory in spite of any persecution or material loss, knowing His Will in our own lives must be done according to Him.

Often I feel as though I am but an “alien” to the world and yes it can be very lonely at times. In fact, I’m experiencing more loneliness in my life now than at any other time before.

Sometimes I feel quite angry seeing this apostasy taking place all around me, and want to scream from the mountaintop “Don’t you see the deception? RUN and don’t look back!”

Why? Because I know the insurmountable train wreck just ahead. The train wreck where I was once headed and had no idea. I was comfortable before with my sin, living for the world, I didn’t much care what was happening around me, I was too self-absorbed. After all it wasn’t my problem if people went to hell, that was their choice obviously, not my concern. I was OK with multiple paths to God, not realizing these multiple paths didn’t all point to the same true God. I was young, naive, rebelling against God, and thought of hell as somebody else’s destiny and problem, not mine. I called myself a Christian but I was a carnal Christian, a Christian in name only, branded as such, or so I thought, being baptized at birth into the Roman Catholic religion, where the choice could never be made for me personaly, to accept Jesus Christ as an infant. My life journey into Catholicism developed into a long list of “do’s and don’ts” from the Roman Catholic perspective in order to have a chance at going to heaven period.

Somehow I got off course with the RCC and it was a blessing in disguise although I still didn’t have much conviction of the blatant sin in my life, as was visible to God with my addiction to watching soap operas, my use of offensive foul language, four letter expletives in my speech, my idle gossip, jealousy, visiting psychics for fun, playing the Ouija board, lust for the material, and other sins too numerous to mention. Yet God knows all things, and in my sin nothing is and ever was “hidden” from the eyes of our omnipresent God. Proverbs 16:25

So please don’t think that just because I am a Christian I have all the answers for you. Because the only way to find the truth is by opening UP the Word of God for yourself and asking the Holy Spirit to correct any error in your life. This is what I had to do and it was a very painful process and still is on a daily basis at times. Yet it requires humbling ourselves before the Lord Jesus Christ to reveal all truths. This isn’t about Brenda, as I am but nothing without Christ. It’s about Him. If we do things for OUR glory is becomes about us. Sure I love to know when something I’ve presented with the Word of God convicts someone and brings them out of any false teaching to Christ. But it’s His words, not my own, that does the convicting through the inter-dwelling of the Holy Spirit. We only plant the seeds Luke 8:11. Some seeds will sprout and bear fruit, some will die. Again according to His will, not mine.

Hebrews 4:12-14 For the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any twoedged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart. 13 Neither is there any creature that is not manifest in his sight: but all things are naked and opened unto the eyes of him with whom we have to do. 14 Seeing then that we have a great high priest, that is passed into the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold fast our profession.

But even with all my shortcomings which are still many, I only desire to be His faithful witness and will NOT be ashamed of the Gospel of Jesus Christ, regardless if it’s “not cool” by the world’s standards or viewed as being “intolerant” or “judgmental” in sharing His Truth.

Just because God uses me or anyone else for His Will, never does it imply we are perfect, without sin and won’t ever stumble….. Romans 7:15 because I can surely tell you I most often feel the need to repent on a daily basis. And I can also tell you in my own walk with Christ, I both fear and love the Lord.

Many times our love for God and trying point people to Christ in such an ungoldy world has people viewing us as having too much ZEAL for the Lord. But I ask you… can there ever really be too much? Psalm 119:139

Keep planting the seeds 2 Corinthians 9:10 and watch the fruits of your labor unfold in being a faithful witness for Christ. For remember…with God all things are possible. Matthew 19:26

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My name is Brenda and I am the Editor / Publisher of DEFENDING GOD'S WORD, a Biblical and Spiritual discernment ministry here to help you in rightly dividing the Word of God when contending for the faith. Our mission for this blog is to reach others with the Gospel message of our Savior Jesus Christ and to alert those caught up in the growing apostacy & deception infiltrating His Church in these last days so they are not deceived. Psalm 119:105 (KJV)


  1. Amen! It’s such a blessing to meet someone with the same burden. This post was a blessing!
    Blessings, Becca

  2. Debbie Pembleton says:

    Oh Brenda, you seem to know my heart and say exactly what I would want to say. Our stories are so similar except I was not brought up Roman Catholic. I was brought up with no real “religion” and heard about Christ when I was about 16. I only really believed and trusted Jesus in January 2011. I too mourn the time lost. I am 50 now and praise God he open my eyes to the real truth of His word. I too see so much apostasy and try to warn people. Keep up the good fight. You are reaching people whether you know it or not. His word will not come back void. Thank you for being an encouragement to fellow believers like me.

  3. Hello Debbie and thank you for your kind words. They too are an encouragement to me as well in this ministry! Praise God that you were led to the Truth in His Word, even if it was only at age 50. The wonderful part is that you DID. And any work of God in coming to that knowledge through the indwelling of the Holy Spirit is by far no accident. Yes for many of us there was much time lost in our past rebellion against Him but “hallelujah” He is still just to forgive those who place their trust in our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ even TODAY!

Romans 10:17 KJV

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